就算我有多不情愿,但实际上我还是个胆小的人,我搞不懂自己为什么会一直被一些小事情弄得内心觉得被伤害到。但终归还好,就算会被伤害,其实真正能打击到我的事倒也不多。大抵是因为我毕竟还是个乐观主义的人吧。
其实到最后,我不得不承认的是自己最最害怕的其实是孤独。现在的我,真想去抱一抱自己认识的每一个朋友。(肏!!我怎么都会说出这么样的话了…>_<)
今天去了这个新的公司,要是没什么太大的意外的话,再苦再累也打算在这里至少待个一年半载吧。
月度归档: 2012 年 3 月
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Afraid (of what?)
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Sweetest Perfection
The sweetest perfection, to call my own
The slightest correction, couldn’t finely hone
The sweetest infection of body and mind
Sweetest injection of any kindI stop and I stare too much
Afraid that I care too much
And I hardly dare to touch
For fear that the spell may be brokenWhen I need a drug in me
And it brings out the thug in me
Feel something tugging me
Then I want the real thing not tokensThe sweetest perfection
Things you’d expect to be
Having effect on me
Pass un-detectedlyBut everyone knows what has got me
Takes me completely, touches so sweetly
Reaches so deeply, I know that nothing can stop me
Sweetest perfection, an offer was made
An assorted collectionBut I wouldn’t trade the sweetest perfection
Takes me completely, touches so sweetly
Reaches so deeply, nothing can stop me -
Normal
做大多数的事情都会有个惯性,很不幸的是我现在还是处于一个向坏处滑的惯性环境里。通俗一点来说,这就叫做恶性循环吧。
我觉得现在很糟糕,但再仔细一想,我已经忘记这是什么时候开始的了。
“一个月前么?半年前?噢!难道是几年前了?”
我现在已经有些分不清到底什么样才是正常和非正常了,想想会觉得可怕,可实际处于这种情况下的时候心里的感觉却并非如此,这就叫做麻木吧,或者我已经开始适应它了。
有时候也会觉得SuicideWatch里面的那些人真他妈其实就是我自己。我今天想了一整天,却悄悄的萌生了一个想法——这辈子我该在30岁之前去自己开一个公司玩玩。
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Pictures of Lily – The Who
这歌太青春了。。
歌词:
I Used To Wake Up In The Morning
I Used To Feel So Bad
I Got So Sick Of Having Sleepless Nights
I Went And Told My DadHe Said, ‘Son Now Here’s Some Little Something’
And Stuck Them On My Wall
And Now My Nights Ain’t Quite So Lonely
In Fact I, I Don’t Feel Bad At AllPictures Of Lily Made My Life So Wonderful
Pictures Of Lily Helped Me Sleep At Night
Pitcures Of Lily Solved My Childhood Problems
Pictures Of Lily Helped Me Feel AlrightPictures Of Lily
Lily, Oh Lily
Lily, Oh Lily
Pictures Of LilyAnd Then One Day Things Weren’t Quite So Fine
I Fell In Love With Lily
I Asked My Dad Where Lily I Could Find
He Said, ‘Son, Now Don’t Be Silly’‘She’s Been Dead Since 1929’
Oh, How I Cried That Night
If Only I’d Been Born In Lily’s Time
It Would Have Been AlrightPictures Of Lily Made My Life So Wonderful
Pictures Of Lily Helped Me Sleep At NightFor Me And Lily Are Together In My Dreams
And I Ask You, ‘Hey Mister, Have You Ever Seen Pictures Of Lily?’ -
我恨现在的天气!
我曾经说过自己当初要来广州念大学完全是因为气候,我不喜欢家乡那里的冬天,想找个温暖一点的地方过冬而已。要不是因为这个,当时的我是不大可能会选择一个离家这么近的地方。虽然要说近的话,其实广州离家也不算太近,坐火车也得6、7个小时,(好吧,这个距离对于一些家乡远在天南地北的人来说应该是“很近”的了。)当然,后来有了高铁,缩短到了一个多小时。
很长时间里,我觉得这个决定对极了。因为这里冬天来得晚,走得早,而且再也不用穿那么多的毛衣过冬了。你可以说其实北方的冬天其实比南方更好过,有暖气,但毕竟还是要出门的吧,我就是厌恶身上被裹着一堆的东西;而且我觉得下雪这事儿,一年见个一两次其实都够了。
但是就像我后来意识到其实离家近点不是坏事一样,广州的气候有个很大的缺点,它没有春天!我在这里从来没感受到春天的存在过,我不知道按照气象学的定义这里有没有春天,但我是从来没见着过春天的标志。见不到新生的青翠的草地、树木的发芽、绽开的花!在这里夏天来得莫名其妙。
除了“思春”之外,最直接让我绝望的就是现在这段时间的回潮天气了。这段时间我就从没摸过干燥一点的东西,一切都是蒙着一层水汽,感觉湿漉漉的。我不知道该怎样抒发现在的心情了,就这样吧:
我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!我肏!。。。
